Today is eight months exactly since Grandpa passed. I cannot believe how much time has passed, on one hand it feels like forever and on the other it feels like a week. Things have been moving pretty quickly this year-my life has changed so much since December. Opportunities keep presenting themselves that I never thought were even remote possibilities. I have grown spiritually in so many ways! In November and December my life was completely devoted to my family and spending time with them, then suddenly the family fell apart so to speak. Sure we are all still very close and involved with each other lives, but the thread that held us all together is gone. So, what do you do when someone that required so much of your time is gone? How do you cope with the loss? How do you go in their bedroom? How do you do anything?
These were all concerns I had for weeks, but now I know what to do. I have learned to depend completely on the Lord for all my needs. Through Bible studies this year, so many things have stuck out and helped shape my testimony. While I miss Grandpa everyday, and it is never the same pulling into his driveway and not seeing him-I am grateful for the experiences I have gained in losing a second father. My life has changed in so many ways that I know he would be immensely proud of me and who I am becoming. Grandpa was always the one who told me to do whatever I wanted to, and that I would be able to do it with the strength of the Lord. When I look back at pictures from this year or think about all the traveling that I have done-I know he is not in the pictures, but Grandpa was there with me. I am sure the girls on the road trip would agree with me, how else would I have been able to fix the door on Jessie's CRV? (LOL)
With the help of the Lord, I have been able to reshape my life this year. My friend have been an awesome support group and a great source of encouragement throughout everything. I love you guys more than you know, many of you are like brothers and sisters to me! Thank you all for challenging me to step out of my box and do new things...It has been a wonderful experience and I am excited to continue on the road he has paved for me. Whether that means moving to Chicago, joining the Peace Corps, going on international Missions, or just staying in Jacksonville to advance his kingdom-I am ready! I am so thankful for all the opportunities I have been given, and the ones yet to come. Please keep me in your prayers as I continue to follow his Will.
Love to all, Emily
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. Philippians 4: 8,9
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