D day

What exactly is "D day"? Well in this case it is downsizing day. Yep, the rough economy has struck again...this time at my former place of employment. Seeing as how I worked for a financial investment firm and everyone is scared to invest right now with the economy the way it is, I can understand the financial pressures put on the company. Still, even you know there is no job security it still comes as a shock. In my case it was a big shock. The meeting ended at 5pm with one less employee...me :( I have been employed by this company for 3 years and went through a lot of changes in that time. This job was how I paid my bills and supported myself, it was mediocre health insurance making my life affordable with type 1 diabetes, and it was something to do everyday from 8-5. I know that I did my job the best I could and the best I knew how given the little training I have in finance, so I know that this is not a personal failure (at least I am going to keep telling myself that).

Where do I go from here? Well, looking for another job is a given (let me know if you know of anyone hiring in the Jacksonville area)! I have a non-negotiable vacation planned for August (4th-11th) so maybe I will start a new job after that...who knows where I will end up. I am trying really hard to look at this from a positive spin and think that I might actually get to use my degree this next time around. It sure would be nice to put an expensive education to use :)

Thanks to all of my friends who have been so supportive through all the tough times at the previous job...and trust me, there were some tough times. My phone has been ringing and beeping nonstop with calls and text messages for people offering words of encouragement and prayer. I so appreciate everyone that is in my life and there for me. I love you guys! My friend Matt (Brummitt to some of you) rescued me from the "pits of despair" tonight as he put it and we went to a movie and got some ice cream. The ice cream was my dinner...don't hate!

My good friend Serena in Indiana sent me this text today and it made my heart happy: "Oh, Em...I'm praying. I know it hurts and it's scary but God is in control. He will provide and he will make his path clear. Jer. 29:11"

That is my prayer request. That God is in control and takes me wherever he wants me to go to glorify him and that I will find comfort in his perfect will knowing that he is in control. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Glory to God!!